Love can trick us into thinking we miss a former lover when, in fact, we just miss the high of love.

After a break up, many of us start romanticizing our former relationship, looking past the bad and obsessing over the good.

But what if you really do love the person, and made a mistake?

Brandon Hoogenboom struggles with this in his latest single “Feelin’”. In it, Hoogenboom details his inner conflict in introspections about his ex-lover.

Now, I have never smoked marijuana because you know, it’s illegal. Of course I’d never do that. But if I did, I’d be able to compare Hoogenboom’s sound to a drug high, where you feel floaty and content. It’s amazing how he’s used different instrumentals, including his airy, mellifluous voice, to create this intoxicating sound.

“Feelin’” is a breezy, carefree indie-pop track. The track mingles light, dreamy guitars with Hoogenboom’s mellow vocals to create a buoyant and easy-going sound that mirrors the high of love.

Hoogenboom’s lyrics show the conflicting thoughts he has about his former lover:

Feelin’ jaded – I’m not the same as when we first met,

but I’m getting tired of pretending I care.

Then again, I do miss caring about certain things.

The breakup has left the singer low and weary. He tries to convince himself that he doesn’t actually care about his old relationship, but he can’t lie to himself; he does.

He feels weak for missing his former lover and doesn’t want to admit it, but his withdrawal from the intoxication of love makes him crave it, and he can’t say no.

But I got no patience – no patience to wait to get over it.

Oh, why am I waiting?

Oh, what is this feeling?

Indeed, he has no patience. Who has? Who likes going through a breakup, having to experience immense sadness until you move on one day? Many of us are not strong enough to do that, and at least Hoogenboom is able to admit that.

He wants his love back.

You make me feel young.

You make me feel high.

You make me feel good.

You make me feel right.

Now, the singer’s mind drifts back to why his relationship was so special. When we’re in love, it feels like we’re floating in the clouds without a trouble in the world. But we attribute all of this to our lover, which can be dangerous. If the singer’s lover is the sole reason for his happiness, what will happen if she leaves?

I just want you to know

I don’t want you to go.

Now, he can’t let her go. In his mind, happiness is only attainable through his ex-lover.

So get up, don’t be afraid of what you feel.

Be real with me.

And you gotta wonder, how’d we end up here?

And he can’t accept if she doesn’t feel the same way anymore.

Love has the power to enliven and exhilarate, but it can also rob you of your rationality and individuality.

In “Feelin’”, Hoogenboom warns us about the dangers of romanticizing our former relationships, because once we start doing that, it’s hard to convince ourselves otherwise.

But Hoogenboom presents this theme in a very pleasant, merry manner.

“Feelin’” is a joy to listen to, a song that’ll make you feel “high”.